Month: November 2013
Last night I had a bad dream. There were no monster, demons, or ghosts in this dream. In this dream I was only haunted my the memories of people I love and care about. When I think back to this dream, now that I am awake, it was silly. When I was still sleeping though it was horrible. It was one of those dreams that was so realist that when I woke up I had to go check my phone and facebook to make sure these events hadn’t occurred. The dream was simple. An important person in my life decided that they wanted absolutely nothing to do with me. I remember in my dream getting a mean message from that person stating it wasn’t worth the effort dealing with me and that they wanted little or nothing to do with me. I remember being so confused and hurt in my dream because this person had been in my life for a good amount of time. They had been a big part of my life too. Next in the dream I was in a car back home and randomly saw them driving down the highway. Suddenly, there was a terrible accident behind the van I was in and my friends car wasn’t next to me anymore. I couldn’t find them anywhere and knew they had to have been part of this accident. I was so scared and upset trying to find them and get a hold of them but I couldn’t. I remember in my dream not knowing if they weren’t answering because they were hurt or because they hated me. It was the worst feeling ever. I have been so anxious since I’ve woken up too. The bad feeling needs to go away now.
So today I woke up sweating. Gross right and it only got worse. I got up and took my car to the mechanic. On the way home I proceeded to feel like I was burning up and I wanted to puke all over my friend Tim’s car. I tried to write it off as maybe it was because I didn’t have breakfast. I attempted to stomach some pizza at the dinning hall and only proceded to feel worse. This lead to the decision to skip all classes and curl up in bed for the rest of the day. Soup was made… well egg drop soup because I hate pretty much all other soup…. and hulu+/netflixs was my company for the day. Once my fever broke and bordem set in I redownloaded snap chat and commenced in sending embarassing sick snapchats to all my near and dear friends. These snapchats included me cuddling with a box of cheezits declaring them my new boyfriend. I would like to claim deliriousness but yeah….
But, my fever has now broken, I feel better and want to eat everything now. Someone bring me a bagel STAT.
On another note a Vlog will be coming soon! That is as soon as I can get dependable enough internet to download Mavericks and get imovie. SOON ! I promise. Maybe over break. I’ll be documenting my travels too!!
Time to find food to eat again!
Not so sick anymore Meghan
I have mentioned before that I am not only a member of a sorority on my campus but a founder of that chapter. Well, every fall we have this lovely little thing called semi formal. It’s basically like a college version of high school homecoming. Since I am a senior this was my final semi formal. I must say over all it was pretty good. Let’s start from the beginning. Everyone usually brings “a date” of some form. In a effort to avoid any awkwardness or drama I brought one of my best friends here Jess. This was a perfect choice. I feel like if I brought any other guy, besides my good gay friend, they would expect to “get some”. That is NOT happening. Sorry bro. I’m not like that and as I’ve mentioned before I’m just not really down to deal with guys at this point in my life. So again, Jess was a great choice. She is one of my best friends here and a sister. She is currently not an active member though so the only way she could go was if I brought her. It worked out perfectly.
So, its semi formal day. From about 1 to 4 pm was spent at my friend ashley’s house hanging out and getting ready. You see I’m not a very “girlie girl”. I can do very basic make up and the extent of my hair expertise consists of a messy bun and making my unruly hair straight. I’m not really one for dressing up. I’m usually pretty content in my running shorts and a tee shirt. I’d like to think I clean up nicely when I try though. So, lucky for me I have some pretty fashionable friends to help me out.
The night was pretty fun over all. The venue was about 45 minutes away on the marina. There was music and food and dancing for a while. After some food, drinks, and busting out some dance moves I grew bored. The back patio was open to us and there was a cute little boardwalk and some scenic little path to the water. Naturally I had to explore. Some friends and I found this cute little bench under the tree and just hung out there. And then this happened.
And then WE FOUND SWINGS
After reliving some childhood memories we decided to head back in and check out the live band that was about to start playing. They ended up being pretty good. They ended up being a country band (duh I live in the south). Even though country music really isn’t my thing they put on a good show and it ended up being a lot of fun. A lot of my friends are super into country so they were on cloud 9.
The cabs finally showed up to get us around 12:30 and I was promptly home and passed out in bed by 1:30. Needless to say it was a great night and a successful final semi. Next it will be my final Formal (aka greek life prom).
Sometimes we just need to be to the point and say what we mean. There was something about this that just really resonated with me.
Sometimes I feel like these are the word I want to say or struggle to say. Plain and simple. I love you.
This is a music monday of sorts. Human by Jon McLaughlin has always been a song I’ve loved.
I think this song goes along pretty well with my previous post.
After all, we’re only human
Always fighting what we’re feeling
Hurt instead of healing
After all we’re only human
Is there any other reason
Why we stay instead of leaving