Month: January 2014
Either there is a family of lady bugs living in my room or someone really is trying to send me a sign. Yet another lady bug has appeared. If you haven’t read my previous post “Happiness and a Ladybug” this one probably won’t make as much sense to you.
We were hit by the lovely snow storm Leon here at school. This has resulted in us having the last two days off. It has been nice but I have now run into some trouble because of it. First off, I have been waiting for my one teacher to submit my letter of recommendation for grad school. He is currently the last out of three I’m waiting on. If he doesn’t submit it by saturday my application is going to automatically be rejected. You see he has had since before winter break to do this and he still hasn’t. He even promised me it would be done a week before the due date. It’s not and it’s due in 3 days. Due to the snow I haven’t been able to go to his office in person to pretty much beg him to submit it. Of course, he isn’t responding to emails at all either. So that is driving me nuts! On top of that, I was supposed to take my GRE’s at 8:30 am tomorrow. Plot twist. School isn’t opening until 10am now and I haven’t been able to reach anyone for the past two days to ask what I am supposed to do. Needless to say today has been frustrating trying to study and get everything else sorted out. I was doing crappy on my practice tests and I couldn’t get answers from anyone about anything I needed. I was having one of those “ugh moments” where I just wanted to call someone and release my “problems of the world” to them. Sitting there in a moment of frustration, I realized I didn’t need to rely on someone else to alleviate my problems. I just need to say a little prayer. I needed to rely on God to help me stay calm and focused. I took deep breathe, said a little prayer and let it all go. Oddly enough, a few minutes later there was something buzzing around my room again. There is was, another ladybug. I just laughed and smiled. Perfect timing hmmm? I’d like to think someone is wishing me good luck and telling me it’s going to be okay. These lady bugs keep appearing at just the right time. They always come right when I need a littler reminder. So I must keep calm and carry on.
You could say that the events of tonight threw me into a whirlwind of emotions. I finally hit that “oh shit I’m graduating” moment. It really hasn’t phased me until now. I think seeing my old building from freshman year did the trick (and some rum….). It held so many memories for me. So many great memories. It was weird to think that was 3 years ago. Three years is such a long time but yet a short time ago. It seems like I have been here forever. It’s just so weird. I really don’t know what to think honestly. Just AHH ! @$@#@%@%#$!!@%@%!$!%. I was waiting for this moment to happen and it has. It weird to think I’ll be moving again soon. Starting over all over again. Potentially in a whole new state. Dear god where has the time gone?! I just don’t know what to think or say. All I know is the last 3 almost 4 years have really taught me about life. I’ve gone through hell and back. I’ve had some of my best days ever and the lowest lows. But that is all behind me now. I have 3 short months to make the best semester yet. Then, it is on to who knows what for me. Oh wow….just wow.
The evolution of Meghan.
When I was young my mother used to tell me that if a lady bug landed on you that meant good luck was coming your way.
This morning I woke up feeling all crappy. Mother nature strikes again if you catch my drift. I was chilling in my bed being an emotional girl. For some silly reason I felt the need to listen to the song you wrote for me for Valentines Day my freshman year. Don’t ask me why. I haven’t listened to that song in a while. I just felt the urge to listen. While laying there in my bed listening to that song, a smile was brought to my face and a happy tear to my eye. A whirlwind of memories came back. It was nice to be reminded of how truly loved I was at one point. A moments later though the reality of the fact I’m alone, at least for now, came back again. I was sitting there quietly just staring at the ceiling when I noticed there was something suddenly buzzing around my room. I didn’t understand how it got in here. All the doors and windows in my apartment were closed. My door is pretty much always closed and was currently closed so I didn’t understand how it got in. At first I thought it was some beetle. I had turned my off and was standing on top of my bed ready to smack it once it finally landed. Once I was able to get a look at what had just been buzzing around my head I discovered it was a lady bug. I didn’t understand how it got in here and why it was here. It’s a little cold still for them to be around here. I sat there for a minute just looking at it confused. It had completely made me forget the semi bummed mood I was in just moments ago. I then remembered my mom always telling me how lady bugs were sign of good luck. Good luck in life, in love and in whatever endeavors you may have. I stopped and just kind of smiled. As I said I have no idea how this lady bug found its way into my room. I took it as a message or a sign from the big guy upstairs. He was sending me a message and I guess maybe that was the sign I’ve been looking for. A sign that it’s all going to be okay and that good things are coming. Now that I am actually typing this out I am realizing that my prayer was answered. I’ve been trying to figure out my life post graduation and I just wanted a sign I was making the right choices. There my sign was. I watched the lady bug wader across my ceiling for a few minutes. I look away just briefly and it was gone. Nowhere to be found. If it flew I would have heard it and compared to a lady bug my ceiling is pretty big. I would have still seen it somewhere up there.
Maybe reader, you think I’m crazy. Maybe some people think it was just a silly lady bug in my room and not a sign. But, that lady bug was what I needed. It was my reminder that great things are coming. So thank you God. Thank you. It always seems when I need an answer I always get it. Just not necessarily in the ways I would expect it.
This list is currently short but I will be adding things to it:
-Ride the skywheel
-Sing Karaoke at Broadway Louies
-Bar hop in a limo
-Savannah for St. Pattys day
-actually go somewhere cool for spring break
You see though, being alone on Valentines Day isn’t really that bad. It’s all about what you make it. Being a single girl on Valentines Day, I have no problem going out and buying my some chocolate and flower because I like chocolate and flowers DAMNIT! This time of year is a prime time for those kind of things. I have no shame saying that I went out last year and bought myself a nice big box of chocolate and enjoyed every damn piece of chocolate in bed (I was sick…). I think instead of being sad that people are alone on valentines people should celebrate. Love yourself. Do something nice for yourself. Go get that pedicure you have been wanting. Buy yourself that nice bouquet of flowers you saw. Go have a nice diner with the rest of your “forever alone friends”. Or, you could choose the ever popular method of “getting drunk”. Valentines day is on a friday this year!
As for me??? I plan I getting myself some pretty flowers (because I secretly love getting flowers and drop hints to people all the time but nobody seems to catch on….), getting some yummy form of chocolate, and going out and having some adventures. I might even cross some things off my SENIOR YEAR BUCKET LIST. That post is coming soon. If you have any fun Valentines day rituals let me know!
Until then enjoy these:
An ad for this popped up on my facebook. I think it looks like the coolest thing EVER! I will be running it! Has anyone else ever done it!?